georgeorwell DeleteThis @email.com wrote:
> Martha Bridegam a écrit :
>
>> Did someone already post material out of Eileen's letters in *The Lost
>> Orwell*, and/or would anyone like to read same?
>>
>> /M
>
> I don't know, but if you are offering to post some of this yourself,
> yes please do.
> B.
>
All the newly published letters were written to Norah Myles, a classmate
from St. Hugh's College, Oxford. Some of them make you feel alternately
sorry for each of them. E.g. this one, conjecturally from Nov. 3 or 10,
1936:
"Tuesday
36 High Street
Southwold
Suffolk
I wrote the address quite a long time ago & have since played with three
cats, made a cigarette (I make them now but not with the naked hand),
poked the fire & driven Eric (i.e. George) nearly mad -- all because I
didn't really know what to say. I lost my habit of punctual
correspondence during the first few weeks of marriage because we
quarrelled so continuously & really bitterly that I thought I'd save
time & just write one letter to everyone when the murder or separation
had been accomplished. Then Eric's aunt [Footnote says this was the
famous Nellie Limouzin of Paris/Esperanto fame] came to stay & was so
dreadful (she stayed *two months*) that we stopped quarrelling & just
repined. Then she went away & now all our troubles are over. They arose
partly because Mother drove me so hard in the first week of June that I
cried all the time from pure exhaustion & partly because Eric had
decided that he mustn't let his work be interrupted & complained
bitterly when we'd been married a week that he'd only done two good
days' work out of seven. Also I couldn't make the oven cook anything &
boiled eggs (on which Eric had lived almost exclusively) made me sick.
Now I can make the oven cook a reasonable number of things & he is
working very rapidly. I forgot to mention that he had his 'bronchitis'
for three weeks in July & that it rained every day for six weeks during
the whole of which the kitchen was flooded & all food went mouldy in a
few hours. It seems a long time ago now but then seemed very permanent..."
Here's another sorry-for-Eileen one, together with some Kopp revelations
that make you sorry for Eric again:
"New Year's Day, 1938
You see I have no pen, no ink, no glasses and the prospect of no light,
because the pens, the inks, the glasses and the candles are all in the
room where George is working and if I disturb him again it will be for
the fifteenth time tonight. But full of determined ingenuity I found a
typewriter, and blind people are said to type in their [sic] dark.
I have also to write to a woman [w]ho has suddenly sent me a Christmas
present (I think it may be intended for a wedding present[)] after an
estrangement of five or ten years, and in looking to see whether I had
any clues to her address I found a bit of a letter to you, a very odd
hysterical little letter, much more like Spain than any I can have
written in that country. So here it is. The difficulty about the Spanish
war is that it still dominates our lives in a most unreasonable manner
because ["Eric" written and stricken out] George (or do you call him
Eric?) is just finishing the book about it and I give him typescripts
the reverse sides of which are covered with manuscript emendations that
he can't read, and he is always having to speak about it and I have
returned to complete pacifism and joined the P.P.U. [Peace Pledge Union]
partly because of it. (Incidentally, you must join the P.P.U. too. War
is fun so far as the shooting goes and much less alarming than an
aeroplane in a shop window, but it does appalling things to people
normally quite sane and intelligent -- some make desperate efforts to
retain some kind of integrity and others like Langdon-Davies make no
efforts at all but hardly anyone can stay reasonable, let alone honest.)
The Georges Kopp situation is now more Dellian [The editors suggest she
means "Delian," being a reference to Delos as home of a mystifying
oracle] than ever. He is still in jail but has somehow managed to get
several letters out to me, one of which George opened and read because I
was away. He is very fond of Georges, who indeed cherished him with real
tenderness in Spain and anyway is admirable as a soldier because of his
quite remarkable courage, and he is extraordinarily magnanimous about
the whole business -- just as Georges was extraordinarily magnanimous.
Indeed they went about saving each other's lives or trying to in a way
that was almost horrible to me, though George had not then noticed that
Georges was more than 'a bit gone on' me. I sometimes think no one ever
had such a sense of guilt before. It was always understood that I wasn't
what they call in love with Georges -- our association progressed in
little leaps, each leap immediately preceding some attack or operation
in which he would almost inevitably be killed, but the last time I saw
him he was in jail waiting, as we were both confident, to be shot, and I
simply couldn't explain to him again as a kind of farewell that he could
never be a rival to George. So he has rotted in a filthy prison for more
than six months with nothing to do but remember me in my most pliant
moments. If he never gets out, which is indeed most probable, it's good
that he has managed to have some thoughts in a way pleasant, but if he
does get out I don't know how one reminds a man immediately he is a free
man again that one has only once missed the cue for saying that nothing
on earth would induce one to marry him. Being in prison in Spain means
living in a room with a number of others (about fifteen to twenty in a
room the size of your sitting-room) and never getting out of it; if the
window has steel shutters, as many have, never seeing daylight, never
having a letter; never being charged, let alone tried; never knowing
whether you will be shot tomorrow or released, in either case without
explanation; when your money runs out never eating anything but a bowl
of the worst imaginable soup and a bit of bread at 3 p.m. and at 11 p.m.
On the whole it's a pity I found that letter because Spain doesn't
really dominate us as much as all that. We have nineteen hens now --
eighteen deliberately and the other by accident because we bought some
ducklings and a hen escorted them. We thought we ought to boil her this
autumn so we took it in turns to watch the nesting boxes to see whether
she laid an egg to justify a longer life, and she did. And she is a
good mother, so she is to have children in the spring. This afternoon we
built a new henhouse -- that is we put the sections together -- and that
is the nucleus of the breeding pen. There is probably no question on
poultry-keeping that I am not able and very ready to answer. Perhaps you
would like to have a battery (say three units) in the bathroom so that
you could benefit from my advice. It would be a touching thing to
collect an egg just before brushing one's teeth and eat it just after.
Which reminds me that since we got back from Southwold, where we spent
an incredibly family Christmas with the Blairs, we have eaten boiled
eggs almost all the time. Before we had only one eggcup from Woolworths'
-- no two from Woolworths' and one that I gave George with an easter egg
in it before we were married (that cost threepence with egg). So it was
a Happy Thought dear, and they are such a nice shape and match your
mother's butter dish and breadboard, giving tone to the table.
We also have a poodle puppy. We called him Marx to remind us that we had
never read Marx and now we have read a little and taken so strong a
personal dislike to the man that we can't look the dog in the face when
we speak to him...
[Snipping details on the dog and on a mutual friend, Mary, who wishes to
avoid pregnancy while Eileen is hoping for it]
....The last candle is guttering, and there isn't any good way out of
this letter. But perhaps it has broken a spell. Does yours mean that
June is at Oxford? I just didn't know. Anyway she can't be more than
fifteen. Norman? John? Elisabeth? Jean? Ruth? Your mother? Your father?
I don't think I want any news of you and Quartus because I am quite sure
I know all about you and it would be so dreadful to hear something quite
different. The only thing I can do is to come and see. I am supposed to
be having a holiday when the book is finished, as it will be this month,
only we sha'n't have any money at all, and we were so rich. When are you
coming to the sales? Or are you? I don't know whether I can get away
even for a day because the book is late and the typescript of the final
draft is not begun and Eric is writing a book in collaboration with a
number of people including a German and I keep getting his manuscript to
revise and not being able to understand anything at all in it [The
editors wonder if this was 'Poverty in Practice,' subject of a contract
with Thomas Nelson & Sons Ltd. that Orwell wasn't well enough to
fulfill.] -- but if you were coming to the sales these things would all
be less important to
Pig.
Did I wish you a happy new year?
Please wish all your family a happy new year from me.
Eric (I mean George) has just come in to say that the light is out (he
had the Aladdin lamp because he was Working) and is there any oil (such
a question) and I can't type in this light (which may be true, but I
can't read it) and he is hungry and wants some cocoa and some biscuits
and it is after midnight and Marx is eating a bone and has left pieces
in each chair and which shall he sit on now."
Good grief.
There's more from later on, much of it continuing with deeply black
humor. What a life.
/M
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